Am sat hear now after my exercise where normally i'd be popping open a bottle, i'm being ratty & argumentative, i'm extremely uptight & yet when i was out on my run, i saw people i know going into bars, being festive in that way, people in the local store buying wine etc & i kinda felt stronger & better than them that i'm here & that having a sober time of it makes me feel empowered if that makes sense!!
Although, to survive the night without, i feel i must sleep. My family tell me to ween off as i said my doc said that stopping just like that is dangerous!, maybe another excuse i'm trying to make!
wf