Since I have obviously wasted my time wondering about the Why's of my ex and whether or not he could ever admit his problem and seek recovery I have come to a decision. Whether it is a precedent in my character or not, I am choosing to seek beyond his illness and look towards a bright new future. Though I am turmoiled with some grief at the relationship loss, I know that there will be pain and that is normal, but I must not risk my life or my child's to be with someone who is incapable of doing what he says he can. I will be strong and I only proclaim because I want it committed that I am starting over and this is my Freedom Call. I am no longer bound by guilt and sadness, I know I am doing what is right for me. I know that each day I grow stronger and find myself more and more. Through all of this let it be my knowledge that I have decided to live my life for me and my own and I am letting go in love. Wish me luck...
Silent and Peaceful Night