Originally Posted by
deerwalk 
Oh yes, and it gave me a reason to go out alone, as I spent most of my time alone and did not feel comfortable anywhere else and always nervous around people. People at bars are loosened up and social, I didn't have to try and be liked there... Drinking buddies were easy to make and I felt I had a home of sorts.
I was the same way. Boredom and the opportunity to be around people and socialize in an environment where people are relaxed, open and friendly.
Also because it was a nice and quicker substitute for eating because many times, making something to eat wasn't nearly as convenient as opening a bottle of wine while getting the same calories and carbs.
I didn't have to have an excuse to drink, I just drank to drink for any reason, especially if I was feeling especially good that day.
I also drank to give me the courage to do something; call a romantic prospect or express my feelings to someone (especially if I was upset at them) because in the back of my mind I had the "I was drunk" excuse to fall back on if it wasn't recieved too well. I drank to give me an excuse to do stupid things and I used doing stupid things as an excuse to drink.
As a writer, it was also a great lubricant to get the creative juices flowing and if guys like Charles Bukowski couldn't be one the best examples, alot people do their very best writing while drinking.
I'm really glad I found this board because it gives me the opportunity to write again. During previous bouts of sobriety, I always got a really bad case of writer's block. I couldn't even compose an email to save my life.
I'm really glad this board gives me an opportunity to express myself in writing without judgement and anonymously. I wish I found this board eons ago.