hi, you sound a lot like me. i did a lot of "college party drinking" on the weekends and never drank alone because, well, that's something that alcoholics do. ha. so after going through a really rough situation around age 24 i started drinking at home and at first it worked so well because i normally wake up in the morning with this feeling of impending doom, but the vodka and oj seemed to take that right away! well, about a year and a half later of hell with this i am trying to stop. i'm on day 3 of my millionth attempt at sobriety. i know i should get medical help, but the only place around here who accepts non-insurance cases is the state psych ward...which i've heard horror stories about. i know what you mean about the symptoms: i'm shaking, extreeemly aggravated, and my head feels like it's in a fog. ANYWAY, sorry for the long ramble...i'm new here too and just wanted to let you know i relate.