Angel, This is the MO of us(ie:me) alcoholics. Nothing is my fault, I am right and everyone else is wrong, and you should know better! I am going through withdrawel and irritable, irrational and miserable. I hate myself but will take it out on everyone around me. I want to feel better so I will make those around me miserable so I dont feel so bad.
I agree with Angelina, you and your children should consider Alanon. If you are finding it difficult as an adult then the children are haveing a more difficult time. The kids could be blaming themselves for what is goin on. If your spouse will not get help it doesnot mean that you should not. In Alanon you will recieve the support of others that have been where you are. Do it for yourself and your kids. You are the first priority, if you are not able to cope you cannot help your kids. God Bless and the best of what you deserve. LOL