I was reading a magazine and in it there was an article about young men who were in a group home. They were there for many reasons but one of the biggest ones was substance use. They were introduced to knitting. Some took awhile to warm up to the idea but once they did they found it soothing. When I started my journey, I picked up my crochet hook (I had learned years ago as a Girl Scout). I'm not real good but when I get antsy, anxious etc. I pick up that hook. I still use cheap Walmart yarn, maybe one day when I get better I'll pick different yarns but for now, this is fine. It is cheap therapy.
My thoughts are with you.