Hi need2quit
Welcome. I think you'll find this is a great place to read and post and generally get some great ideas.
Whether you call yourself an alcoholic is immaterial really- hiding drinks and being dependent on alcohol to function in any way just isn't good.
No-one should have to live like that.
The damage you may be doing to yr wife and marriage is secondary to the damage you're doing yourself.
I think you've made a good choice coming here.
See you 'round!
D