I made it through day two. I am so pleased for me. I didn't think I could.
My partner offered me a red wine last night - I hadn't discussed with him I was on the sober train (in case I failed).
I really quickly (before brain could kick in!) said never offer that to me again. He knew straight away.
Later on we discussed it.
Ksplash my self esteem is about a 3-4 .... that may sound low but it means I am riddled with anxiety and nerves but I have a lot of hope inside & I am trying to get rid of it all so I can just be me.
Jch116 - I know, binge drinking is hard. Because you can get through a day or two your mind says....ah your fine, see you didn't drink yesterday. I am on day 3. Will be hard, is the weekend. But we have no events planned (thats good!).
Jch116- definetly we can do this together, what day are you on? I don't know if I need a meeting or not one minute I think I want support with people who KNOW whats it's like. But then the next I think block everyone out do it alone.
Yes I have picked fights, get jealous, have a go at other girls. Scarred my ankle, uuugggghhhh yuk! And I have done worse than that but won't go into it (at least not till I am well well sober!)
I have to dash now (appointment) will be back on later
Day 3 and I am still determined to keep going.