Welcome retro!
It is good to have you here.
For me, what it took to complete relieve my obsession was getting involved in a recovery program and yes, working the 12 steps. Yup, I know I could stay sober without the fellowship and the 12 steps but I want and deserve SO much more than that. Today, I am finding myself, living in today and have some peace from the "committee" for the first time in years.
Again, welcome, & keep posting!