I totally relate! I don't do "jack" when I'm on the wasted train going no where... When I got sober this time around (after the severe sickness), I did 'spring cleaning' in my house since it never got done. I thought, it's better to see something good from my feeling like crap than just sitting there whinning in my head "I should be doing something"!
Keep posting and taking care of YOU!!... my friend!
xoxoxo,
Nicki:ghug