Originally Posted by
herein1985 
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There have been more than a handful of times over the past 3 years where i have blacked out and done something really embarrassing or something that i regretted. This is the only time i feel like i may have a problem, right after doing something that i feel horrable about while drunk.
I know that awful feeling...the brick in the pit of your stomach. My feelings of self-loathing after a drunken episode used to radiate from me onto all those around me.
I have owned my actions for several months now. I still screw up but not nearly as often or as shamelessly as I once did.
I am learning to learn from my mistakes. All the best to you!