Welcome Herein. SR helped confirm what I already knew. I feel like this place pulled me from the brink. I've heard it said that it's not how often you drink, but what alcohol does to you when you do drink. I loved the early, euphoric days when it was still possible to have just a few. Those days are gone & can't come back - but oh, how I tried to recreate them. It sounds like it's a danger to you, so you're doing a wise thing by coming here. Let us know how you're doing.