That self-condemnation stuff after making an ass out of myself, Yeah, I can relate! The horrible feelings and the self talk of "I'll never do that again".... Yet, I did countless times. I got to the point where it was safer to drink at home, mostly alone, to avoid "the morning after" crap of "what did I do", "what did I say"... yada yada.
I can't "manage" my drinking. A couple of beers with friends -- those were the days! I could do that recently but yet come home and start the binge cycle which would go on days around the clock.
It's good you're looking at things and that this might be problematic for you. You don't have to go where I've gone, where many of us have gone. Check out the posts and keep expressing yourself. There's a lot of good stuff here!
Best to you,
Nicki
