Thanks! And yes, I'm starting off with 2 mtgs a week that I have committed to with a freind in recovery who has 15 yrs. My reputation feels shot in the big mtgs in this area of Tahoe -- the "well & wonderful clickish" groups. I just can't take the humiliation right now. My vanity has something to do with it to. I hate to admit it, but when I started going to the mtgs where I live years ago I was such a cute thing. Now I'm aged and ugly to me. I have always relied on the exterior to guide me through life. I don't have that to rely on anymore. It's probably a good thing so I can truly start dealing with the inside of me. Just being honest. Your thoughts??