"Have you ever known someone that had progressed to heavy drinking that cut back and actually maintained self control? Or is an alcoholic, an alcoholic, an alcoholic..... no gray lines?"
---------I'm sorry to say, but I have never known anyone who manages to cut back and maintain self control.
As has been said in this thread, it is a progressive and fatal illness.
Lost, please don't go where some of us have gone.
Make use of SR and maybe even go to AA.
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