thanks for everyone's love & support
I believe I am at the point were I don't want to use or hear the excuses of "wait until after _____________"
which is why I made the list - there is always some reason to NOT leave.
Writing it out helps see the insanity - I can not continue to live in an environment that is not healthy for me and where I am miserable.
I don't know want to live anymore where I am constantly wiping the steam off my shower door to see if he is trying to get stuff out of my purse. I do not want to live where I stand on my door step saying a prayer before I walk in "God prepare me for the person he is tonite when I walk thru the door - if it's the user or the lovable husband/grandpa"
Many will think I'm a horrible person leaving or him leaving at this time of the year - But What others think of me is none of my business
like my other post - It's not my fault
I just want him to go but of course it's never that easy.
thanks again for the love & support - I know I'm gonna make it - it's just painful and heartbreaking
But This Too Shall Pass and No Matter What Me & My HP are going to be Ok even better than OK.