Hi Bon.... It's so hard to get to the point where you can let go and let him make his own mistakes. I know you love him and I know that you have good reason not to trust him. Remember, he is going to do what he is going to do. You can't stop it. Trust that as you have communicated in the past, that this time he will also make the right decision. You are one strong woman. Take care of you and know that your "NY buddy" is thinking of you! HUGS!