((((( SC )))))
I think the only way to move forward is to cut ties completely for both you and Ryan. The only way out of he11 is through it.
I recently had to ask my ah not to drink on a day he had to drive d12 to the movies while I was at work. I pondered on it later. No One has ever had to ask me not to drink before I drive with my own children. Insane much? lol