SD
if you're anything like me? I drank for 15 years - that's a long time - and drinking permeated every part of my life.
I've been sober [counts...] 19 months now, and I *still* want to drink sometimes. It's a conditioned response I guess. I may always feel this impulse, I might not - I dunno...
and, in the end, you know what? it doesn't matter....
I know I can think what I like, I can want whatever I like too, but I don't have to *act* on anything that's gonna cause me pain....and I know drinking will cause me pain, and pain to others too.
Is a little drink too much to ask for????????????????? I just need an outlet for relief sometimes! Any non-alcoholic suggestions????
It's damn hard to live life with no instant escape, no immediate relief. If I had any surefire suggestions on relief, I'd share them - best I can offer right now is
do *anything* but drink.
Use your lifelines SD - AA meetings, AA friends, SR, family...do whatever you need to keep walking the right path.
I hope you feel less irritable tomorrow
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