Thread: Wanted to drink so bad today!!!
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Old 11-08-2008, 05:13 PM
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Originally Posted by Jen042208 View Post
I wanted to drink so bad today. I am not even sure what happened, I was just mad at the world or something! I was so irratible. I snapped at everyone that crossed my path. By the afternoon, all I wanted to do was go to a bar and sit on a bar stool and get wasted!

Why is it after 6 & 1/2 months of sobriety, I STILL want to drink sometimes? I hate this disease! WILL IT EVER GET BETTER?

Why do I get so angry and irritable sometimes and just want to punch someone? I graduated from treatment, go to 5 AA meetings a week, am in counseling, have a sponsor and am on step 8. WTF? When will it not be so darn hard all the time! I feel like I am crazy sometimes!

Is a little drink too much to ask for????????????????? I just need an outlet for relief sometimes! Any non-alcoholic suggestions????
Exercise. Strenuous exercise, releases endorphins, produces a natural 'high'. As far as still wanting a drink, sometimes, I think it's not a bad thing, in a way. Confirmation that we are real alcoholics. After all we put ourselves through during our drinking careers, would a non-alcoholic have these thoughts?
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