Wanted to drink so bad today!!!
I wanted to drink so bad today. I am not even sure what happened, I was just mad at the world or something! I was so irratible. I snapped at everyone that crossed my path. By the afternoon, all I wanted to do was go to a bar and sit on a bar stool and get wasted!
Why is it after 6 & 1/2 months of sobriety, I STILL want to drink sometimes? I hate this disease! WILL IT EVER GET BETTER?
Why do I get so angry and irritable sometimes and just want to punch someone? I graduated from treatment, go to 5 AA meetings a week, am in counseling, have a sponsor and am on step 8. WTF? When will it not be so darn hard all the time! I feel like I am crazy sometimes!
Is a little drink too much to ask for????????????????? I just need an outlet for relief sometimes! Any non-alcoholic suggestions????