My Update
It doesn't get easier. I made the decision to divorce mt AW and things are getting crazy. I'm at the end of a five year journey and I am confident in my decision to move on. Problem is my AW is not. I went out of town for business and she decided to tell my 15 year old son about it while I was gone! Never mind I had asked her for the past week while I was home that we both talk to him! I got home last night and she was drunk. I have an 18 year old son at college and he is trying to support his brother, focus on school and his life and she is dividing and playing the pity me card to two CHILDREN. It makes me mad and makes the time we will be together in this house unbearable while the divorce is being settled. I have a feeling the mediation we agreed on will blow up as well since she is being irrational.
Thanks for letting me vent!