Pink, you nailed it for me. I was "functional" too, but looking back, BOY was I delusional! Sure I have a great job, great fam, great spouse, material posessions yada blah, but that is only stuff outside of myself. I was, and still am, very dysfunctional inside.
As for AA, I am an athiest. I find for now that the higher power part is the strength I find in the group... the love of my family.. the desire to be free from the burdon of alcohol. As I've heard on many posts about reluctance and AA.. try it, take what you want leave the rest. It's a much better place to be for that one hour of your day than most places! Not many other places I can go and feel supported, loved, and most of all.. understood. I haven't even said a word yet, I'm just being a sponge and soaking in everything I find to be motivational, helpful and supportive. Kinda like coming here
