I lost everything and because I was still young when I got sober, I had never really been able to gain anything because of my drinking/drug use.
Personally, I have no idea how one can own a computer and be a drinking alcoholic. It is the same with me and work. I have no idea how an alcoholic can keep a job etc... As I was unable to do any of that stuff. My lifestyle evolved around drinking and drugs, and there was no room for anything else.
The one thing I do know about bottoms is everyone's is different but it feels the same. It's not being able to imagine a life with alcohol or without it. AA describes it as the jumping off point.