Old 10-25-2008, 04:40 PM
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Clutch B
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You don't have to lose material things to "hit bottom".

I never got a DUI, lost a house, lost a job, lost a spouse, or anything like that.

But I had to drink, even when I didn't want to. And I couldn't stop drinking, even when I wanted to stop. And regardless of how I tried to control my drinking, I couldn't control it.

After so many failures from so many attempts to be "normal", the demoralization increased exponentially.

Eventually it got to the point that I didn't want to live, if I couldn't live sober. But I didn't believe I could live sober. It was a tossup between reaching out for help and suicide.

So yeah, you could say I didn't "hit bottom" materialistically. But I hit bottom emotionally.

Glad you're here -- keep coming back. You don't have to drink anymore if you don't want to.
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