i almost wish i would hit bottom
Many people I know in AA - lost their families, in and out of jail most of their lives (violent crimes when drunk), near death health issues, lost their homes and life savings, physically addicted to alcohol (convulsions when they stopped drinking)...I am so grateful that I decided to take action before I hit that kind of bottom.
and if you were a functional alcoholic, what made you stop?
About to lose my job, about to lose my family, mental health hanging by a thread...a moment of clarity - "This behaviour is insane and I have to stop. I can't stop on my own and I need help". 10 months sober, life is good.