I consider myself agnostic but AA has worked for me. I may have chosen to drink but there did come a day when the power of choice was lost once I picked up the first drink. I was a functional alcoholic. I too got awards and promotions at work, owned a home, and raised three children. I sought a solution because my bottom was that I was living a lie. The world that others saw was functional but the world I lived in was not. I hated being in my own skin, I felt like I was an actress, that no one knew the real me and if they did they would not like me anymore, the thought of facing a life without drinking was frightening. That was my bottom and internal bottom not external but just as real and as effective to get me to stop drinking.