I was full of fear in the beginning. I didn't know what to do/expect when I first went to a meeting. I did go alone. But after going to the meeting I found out that everyone else was just like me--as far as their struggle with alcohol/addiction. I realized that I was no longer alone.
As far as hiding--I was ashamed at first of being alcoholic--I didn't want anyone to see me go into the rooms because I didn't know what they would think of me. Since then, I now realize that I no longer care what others think..I am there for the purpose of maintaining my sobriety. I use different recovery tools--one of which is the AA program.