Thanks GIVELOVE!
Well, I guess my life is okay outside the draining ABF..... I did drop out of my classes though. I was taking them online and without a teacher in front of you and having not been in school for 6 years - IT WAS HARD! I couldn't keep up. That made me feel like a failure. My work keeps me busy and drained, but I don't really want to be here forever....
I think I am going to start focusing on my health - my body mainly. I have always had low self-esteem and now I have gained about 20 lbs - still not everweight, but when I look in the mirror I don't like what I see.
It's so darn tough to focus on yourself when someone you love has problems that seem way bigger than your own.... than you look back and realize YOU were much better off before you took on this burden - Im sorry to refer to him that way, I love him, but he is a HUGE burden on my life..... and he has no clue.
Ugh, sometimes I wish I could be as oblivious as they are...... must be nice.
