Keep working it, NeedHelp. You've already learned so much - remember your first posts I'm just amazed at how far you've come already.
I think it's a good thing you can identify the moods. Awareness of all of this stuff is SO important. So often, we just get into this cocoon and ignore all of the signs around us that something isn't right. You know that old saying, "knowledge is power" ? I really believe that.
How are things going for you? I mean.....you have a life outside of ABF. Are you happy? Are you spending as much time working on your own happiness as you are worrying about his behaviors? I mean, no matter what happens with him, you have a whole life to look forward to, so much to see and do and try and be. Hope you're keeping your eyes open to ALL the possibilities.
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GL