prodigal

You are. Melodie Beattie addressed this in Codependent No More. She discusses how the death of our dreams is one of the most painful things we ever have to face. And it is true. I grieved terribly over the loss of my AH. I spent several days watching the old videotape of his sailing trip through the Caribbean back in 1992.

That man no longer exists. And he was one heckuva man. I loved him more than I ever thought I could love anyone. I am sorry he's gone. I used to wish somehow he would come back. But that isn't going to happen.

So I let him go. Then I had to face the fact that I didn't have a life of my own. I've been working for over a year now to get a life. It hasn't been easy, but in regaining my own life, I was able to let go of his.