Oh god..not again..codeine!
Ok, here's my story in a nutshell.
About 7 years ago, I got hooked on over the counter codeine. Gradually, my intake increased time and time again. After 3 or 4 years on them, I was taking about 18-22 of them when I first got up in the morning and about the same amount about an hour 2 before bed. Then I started feeling the usual side-effects pretty badly..bad enough that I don't even want to mention them.
So, finally, I had enough, and went cold turkey.
Worst pain, and hardest thing, hands down i've ever done in my life. No question. That was about 2 or so years ago.
Then about 3-4 months ago, I bought a bottle because I was going through a lot of stress, in fact, almost unbearable amount of stress aside from working 7 days a week for 8 months. Well, guess what? Yeppers, I'm addicted again. Not like before mind you, i'm not taking the usual 18-22 or them twice a day, but i'm taking maybe 10-12 once a day. Well, i'm getting problems again, but i'm terrified as heck to go thru the cold turkey routine again..(it took about 3 days before the pain and suffering went away) although I'm going to have to do this within the next day or 2 because i'm seriously getting myself into trouble here, health wise. I can't go out in public much right now because, normally i'm a very cheerful person, but now, i want to rip out everyone's throat so badly at all hours of the day, and i'm a somewhat larger guy, and this is completely beyond me because i'm NEVER violent, i'm extremely friendly. I feel almost as if i'm going crazy somedays..which is scary as hell.
I'm trying to justify to myself that obviously this is better for me, and the withdrawls won't be as bad as the first time around. By the time I start (hopefully VERY soon) cold turkey on this again, i won't have time to see my doctor, (usually takes a week or 2 to see him b/c he's so busy) so should I wean myself off of it, or just flat out stop? Any advice anyone?
Appreciate anyone taking the time to read this.