I have been in recovery twice, by choice, I never went through detox as I know I can handle the "come down" on my own. Its the guilt that destroys me, I had been doing so well and I came upon a weak point. Its extremely difficult being my age and constantly struggling when your friends are going out and enjoying themselves. Unfortunately for me, it does not work that way, this last past month rather than deal with a hangover I drink in the morning to cope with the depression. Im not depressed because on the weekdays I workout, i have no intentions of drinking, no cravings, however, when the weekend hits, its a total circus, non-stop drinking, the drinking lowers my inhibitions and finally this time, it lead me into oblivion with a nightmare i thought i put behind me