Thank you Anna- and I agree and will stay sober - I know drinking will make this worse and make me more confused. Patience is hard when you are waiting on someone to figure out their crap when it has such a massive effect on the other person (me). It's hard not to also get angry - yet I know I am just sad. Ohhhh life. My tummy is in a knot. I haven't cried like this for 7 years or so...I don't want to loose her but I can't keep her if she feels she needs to move on- and then if she comes back after her thinking I am going t have a hard time trusting her again- darn darn darn
