Thank you...all of you. I'm kinda watching this in 'realtime' and right now this instant...I'm in a bizarrely good mood...I handled situations this weekend that would've been impossible in the 'dark years'.
But I handled them due to all the sober thought processes I've developed these last 3 months...that party would, honestly, have been pure f---ing torture done sober. THE DECISION TO DRINK was so right for the time. It's 2 days later and I'm still drinking...typing's failing me a bit...