Earlier when I started reading the replies I felt like I wasn't alone as much anymore. I got all emotional.... crying & what not, luckily my Mom had just walked in the house when she caught me crying. Then I really let it all out.... boy non stop crying, but well worth it. She talked to me & told me what bible verses to read & to pray & have faith in God.
You all are so "God sent Angels" to me. I realize I am addicted to my AH, aswell & know I need to let go too. Even if I already kicked him out, I also need to detach myself from him emotionally. I have alot of work ahead of me, but I have been @ the bottom before & got back up... I know I can do it again by myself. I will keep in touch w/ everything. I'm just very exhausted especially since I have hardly slept in past days... about 2 hrs each night, atleast. God bless you all & thank you from the bottom of my heart your support means the world to me right now. Thank you!!!!!!!!!! :Val004
[What's there to smile about now?]