Originally Posted by
SelfSeeking 
I feel like no one understands how desperate I feel...
... have you ever had the feeling like you're screaming and no one can hear you? This has got to stop!
I know how desparate you feel. I felt like I was going insane. Please, find a sponsor that will take you through the steps and be there when you need someone to talk to. Do this for yourself..now. You do not have to live like this.