OMG! This sounds exactly like my story! Once I started it was off to the races. My time in AA told me this would happen! I thought I could go it alone after a period of time and I'm afraid to make that commitment again. I'm glad I found this....it's given me the strength to start over again...4 days sober...the first day I'm feeling OK....even though I "wasn't drinking as I did before"...right! Now I have to get the courage to get back to AA...I know I'm not unique....I feel like such a loser! It's just great to know I'm not alone in this!