I'm with Bernadette.......it's Friday and sounds like it's time for a Silverberry weekend to me!!
I don't know about you, but I completely shut down for so long that when I began to feel again (as much as it hurt) it was a big step. It's okay to feel sad and angry as long as you're not getting stuck there. Sounds like you have expended so much energy caring for others, and now it's time to spend it on you. (((hugs)))