Paulos, you have been to hell and back again I know but it didn't say in the big book admit that we were powerless then it would be all better.....hang tough you have been doing a fabulous job so far.....and I agree, when are you going to go to your Dr......you have followed my recovery long enough to know that there are just sometimes when you MUST conceed and go and say hey this is harder than I can do alone......give it a chance you may find yourself back to almost normal again!!!!
Love and Hugs,
Pamm