Your post made me feel sad today. I feel for you as I know today my emotions have come back after months of being free from it. It was my nephews 17th birthday and he had arranged to go out for tea with his mum. My AS had picked him up after drinking, went to the restaurant, drank more and actually offered him alcohol. I have always told him never to get in the car with her as I feared but he did. My nephew had been trying to call me that night to pick him up but I wasnt home.
All day I was thinking - how could she do that to her only son, shes mad! Putting him in that position.
See, they have no logic or reality when the bottle is their best friend. Usually I would of called her and told her off, but I thought why bother, its not going to make any difference. Sometimes we have to let go.