August,
Things get better, a lot better. Take things one minute at a time. If you get frustrated at the meetings express to the group how you feel, exactly how you feel. I never told my family and friends of my problems and addiction and things got out of control. You have a chance to get things better for you, take whatever steps you need to accomlish sobriety. It get's so much better, it just takes a little time and a little patience. You will get there. We are all here as sounding board so let it rip. This site is filled with great people that are here for you. WELCOME.
Shawn