How does one get to this place. I am 38 - did a little dabbling when I was young, probably too young to drink. Never really liked it. Only socially drank once in a great while over the last 20 years. What changed in that one moment last year that suddenly, I started to drink? What happened to me. I have had alcohol in the house for months and never even touched it. Only had it around for others. What happened a year ago that sent me on this downward spiral? I can't figure it out. I feel so lost and can't find an answer to this.