Hey - don't beat yourself up. PICK yourself up and dust yourself off. Tell your husband you feel you have a drinking problem and you are afraid it will shorten your life dramatically if you continue to drink. Tell him how you feel about alcohol and if this doesn't stop him from enabling your disease then maybe think of counseling for the both of you. Be straight up with him. Don't just say "I haven't drank in a few days." "I just don't want to." How about saying I could die if I continue to drink. I would think that should stop his goading you into this is a treat type thinking. If he knows this is more a poison then a "treat" he won't or shouldn't be offering it to you.