Welcome to SR,
We support you in your efforts to quit drinking, and stay sober. Congrats on day 4!
One thing someone told me early on in my sobriety was: One day at a time. I apply this to everything from relationships to work...if I can just get through one day without a drink, I'll be alright. I started focusing on each hour when things got hard. Day after day, I've stayed away from a drink.
As many of us go along, we find other methods of coping with the stresses of life and the peer pressure around us. Having a community of sober individuals in recovery helps many of us stay sober ourselves.
Just reading your post and taking the time to reply has helped me in my own recovery.
I hope you find a contented and happy life in sobriety. Changes will happen. Life doesn't become easier, but it's much better without the crushing burden of an alcohol problem. Alcoholism is a disease of the mind, and the disease tells us we are ok. I found that I need to be careful when I feel good. It's easy to slip back into previous patterns. It's a miracle that I'm sober....It's been through prayer, the use of this website, AA, and the help of others that I stay sober.
You are not alone. Keep up the good work.
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