I've felt the way you're feeling quite often, though I can't say that after a year of not being w/xabf i still felt so much pain and bitterness until someone else came along that wasn't like what I felt was perfect.
It's just really hard, for me anyway, to see a man for who really is because I'm either so desperate for the marriage and kids and the feeling that someone wants me or I'm picking out 100 reasons to not like the guy because he doesnt give me that same "feeling" that xabf did.
I truly want a family of my own, but for now I've decided to just work on ME. So I'm not so blind anymore and so that it's obvious to everyone else that I'm a happy, accomplished woman who'd make a wonderful wife and mom. Right now I know I don't portray that image.