Kids are 14 and 17. I am seeing a counselor. She helps, but she can't live w/me... ya'know?! The kids are aware of the drug "problem", but they don't think it's a problem... "so he used drugs... drank a little, smoked weed. He isn't doing it now, so what's the big deal?" He allows them to do whatever they want, whenever they want and so they think he's just great. I have expectations.... not the gustapo, just normal parenting stuff, so I am "no fun, a pain in the *@* and demanding."
I wanted to not be involved in the chaos of addiction. I wanted not to be with my AH any longer. I didn't want to stop being my kids Mom. The pain is terrible.