thanks for doing that BL
as to the question, Subsalicylate...drinking is no answer. I'm sure you know that. I certainly have the experience to know that.
Drinking never solves anything - the best it can do is make you forget for a short time...and even that amnesiac effect is lost to us eventually.
And it brings a whole load of other problems with it.
I'm not sure what these other problems you mention entail? but I'd mention to your therapist that whatever you're doing isn't enough. It maybe you need to talk about your expectations, it may be there's something your therapist is not aware of...I don't know. But be honest and open - that's what they're there for
What I do know is self medicating with booze is a really really bad idea. When we do that I think we're doing nothing but making things worse.
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