strongerwoman, :ghug3
You don't know me but I have read your posts since I joined about 3 months ago. I think you are an incredibly strong, bright, loving mother. And that is the honest truth. You are being WAY too hard on yourself and it sounds like you have not been taking care of yourself. Being a Mom is hard enough but very hard when it is ALL on you.
I am sorry you are feeling so beat up right now.
How old are your kids? Maybe you need to sit down and explain to them that you are feeling really worn out and feel very badly that you have not been able to be the Momj that you want to be lately. Maybe make a time out pact. I have a rule in my house that the kids are not allowed to jump on me and ask for anything for 10 minutes after I get home from work. Then I grab myself a drink (iced coffee usually), sit down call them in. Also, I give myself a time out if I can not control my frustration. I don't know if that is good advice but it works for me. If I am in a bad mood I warn the whole family when I come in so no one thinks it is them. Hehe.
I wish you the very best! PLEASE be kind to yourself, you deserve it!