Ruch...sorry you had one of those days today. I had one like that real bad on Monday. I stayed sober and I'm really glad you are doing so as well. It is actually very helpful to me to see people like you who are willing to post honestly when the desire to drink becomes very strong. I have not yet learned how to share that with people until after the feeling passes...
I love hearing about how others stay sober. The face to face is very important to me, but I also know that there will always be times when either others are not available to help me, or that I am incapable in the moment of reaching out. That is when having a path to follow helps. Thinking through the drink, not getting too hungry, meditation, having spritual books around...all these things are tools that help me to continue on the path of sobriety when it hardly seems worth it in the moment.
Hang in there!:ghug3